Gnome Kat

sometimes people will really fuckin hurt you and you won’t ever get an apology

Basically any and all compliments make me feel like shit, it’s not a good quality of mine but its the truth

Before I transitioned being called handsome hurt, I didn’t want that. Since I transitioned I have been called beautiful and sexy. I still feel bad, I don’t believe them. It’s odd because… I can kinda see what they mean? Like I personally like how I look sooo much better now it’s insane, but from other people it feels like a lie. Or else it makes me feel like I’m just an object to them, like an exotic sex thing, not a person.

I work as a gpu/graphics programmer, and people say I’m smart and talented. I never believe it, ever. When I was young I did not do well in school, like special ed classes. That early life experience is still internalized. It’s why I push myself really hard at the detriment of my own health. I truly believe I am not a smart person despite recognizing why people think I am.

Last year I was diagnosed autistic with Persistent Demand Avoidance sub type. I have read online that PDA people often struggle with compliments. Its super fucked tbh, I can never feel good about any accomplishment, nothing is enough, and I feel unlovable.

Pop my knees

The fact that you think these things are even remotely comparable is kinda part of the problem

Thats what my brother does, but he is a cis het man who works in construction as an electrician. He is very left leaning so he does try to challenge things where he can.

But I can’t do that. I am a trans woman and confrontation legitimately would put me in danger and it wouldn’t work anyways. People claim I am biased because I am in a group who is being targeted, its bullshit beyond belief but thats how people are.

Your understanding of the effects of immigration is childish.

Making friends as an adult

red tape

I just make the change and put it in for review and then move on with my life… most the time its not turned away if its a good change. Even if there wasn’t any task or discussion before hand, and if it’s small enough I can just do it quick then I won’t be disappointed if people want it done a different way. At least for me it feels like people like it when I just make a decision and solve the problem instead of bogging them down with discussing everything before hand

But yeah lots of times “simple” changes are not actually simple in the system as it already exists… and that can be frustrating but thats software…

mmmm thin mints

No I won’t LMAO. I absolutely prefer the night over the day and I find overcast days to be such a blissful melancholy vibe. I have sensory issues and bright lights really bother me, being out in the sun for too long just is overwhelming.

Yea a million times yes. Grew up in Indiana moved to southern California. I fuckin hate the politics of modern day Indiana but I desperately miss the rain and the snow. I like the politics of California much more but it rains like a handful of times a year and it’s been years since I have seen snow… Trying to move to Seattle next maybe best of both worlds, not sure if it snows much there but I miss the rain the most.

I don’t support your rights to have them, sorry <3

I would say that you’re right guns make people feel safe.

I just wanted to say that guns absolutely do not make me feel safe, knowing one is nearby or seeing one makes me incredibly anxious. Holding one even more so. I don’t understand how people can feel safe around them, to me it’s like having a ticking time bomb in the room but the timer was set by a rng.

Never? I feel bad lying… people who knowingly lie are doing a bad thing in my opinion… should really not do that

legos

fair enough they are pretty alien

alcohol of any form I will not consume… I’m not against getting fucked up, I smoke weed but alcohol itself is just absolutely nasty to me. hate how it tastes, hate how it feels

I also avoid ketchup or ketchup based products like BBQ sauce… I just think it tastes bad… I like mustard… I have been like this since a very young age

is there anything specific that made u not want to eat them or just the general in-depth knowledge? I find often the more I know about a food the less appealing it seems

i feel like discord is much better at fostering a community and less good at being a resource or repository of information. like in a discord you talk directly to individuals so you get to know them and become friends. if you are new you can just pop in and say hi and start making friends, it’s very organic. other platforms are much worse at this. I feel this is a big reason people use it.

Honestly Mastodon is pretty nice compared to Reddit or Lemmy. It’s like mostly a bunch of gay and trans ppl posting pics of their cats or gardens and saying they are “eepy” all the time then writing out long technical posts about the Linux kernel or group theory or something.

I’m pretty sure the tone of this place would go up a few ticks if every other post had a blob fox emoji.