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CW: Grim content

I’ve thought about this, and having worked in hospitals and nursing homes, I’ve seen a lot of people die, so it’s given me some perspective.

My husband is the closest person to me by far. He also has a lot of chronic health problems. I suspect he will pass away before me.

The older I get, the fewer people I have in my life. In my 20s and into my 30s, I had a lot of friends, but little by little they’ve fallen off. I’ve got a couple friends in my MTG playgroup and one friend who I go longboarding with in the summer, but beyond that, I’ve pretty much lost touch with everyone. This only gets worse as time passes.

Best-case scenario is that I die in a nursing home or hospital, completely alone. Maybe my nieces and nephews might visit sometimes, but there’s no way I’d ever see them frequently, nor should they feel compelled. I’ll be old and confused in a strange scary place, with people talking in that condescending baby voice that I saw a lot of CNAs and nurses use. If I’m still able, I can play video games or something up until the end, but I have reason to suspect I have the beginning of Parkinson’s like my dad, so slim chance of that. I’ll just die staring at the ceiling, in a completely emotionless void.

Worst-case scenario (most likely) is that I get put in a nursing home but evicted for being too poor. Then I’d just die faster out on the streets or something, or in a shelter. And come to think of it, this might actually be the preferred scenario.

Either way, I’ll certainly die alone and unloved.

I have a book about this, and I think it’s good to plan ahead.

I’m also too scared to read the book because I struggle with suicidal thoughts, and I fear I might make the decision too soon, when I’m in fairly good health.

I’m a bit of a nerd about longboarding and also building Commander decks in Magic the Gathering.

I wouldn’t say I’m an expert in either case, but I’m really interested in trying different setups and also seeing people discuss their own experiences and builds.

Oh, that’s too bad, in that I’m not currently a bird.

🤔

Will you be my lawyer if I get caught? “Your honor, let the record show that my client wasn’t circumventing the lock – he physically destroyed the lock instead. Nothing further, your honor.”

I’d feel like that would be crossing a line that I’ve made for myself. In theory, I’m not opposed, but I feel like the stakes would be much higher once it involves circumventing a lock.

If I were very desperate, I’d do it.

I’m no fan of porn for multiple reasons, but I strongly suspect the incidence of porn addiction is greatly exaggerated by a Puritanical sex-negative culture and the related “no-fap” movement.

If it’s not interfering with your life and happiness, it’s probably fine. If you think it’s too much, then that’s valid, but I don’t think anyone, not even a psychiatrist, could tell you with any certainty how much is too much. It depends on so many different things.

I’ve had some Puma sweatpants for years, and they’re still in great condition with no pilling

Main tip is not to tell everyone your spots

I told some young people once and they got reckless, got caught, and the business slapped on a padlock

Oh, do they think I’m saying that people are bad for not being able to pay? Damn, that’s the opposite of what I’m saying. These apps are predatory.

Notable exceptions include sale prices by Target and Circle K/Holiday, which typically do require you to buy the posted quantity to get the deal

Learned that one the hard way at Target one day

Edit: In the US

Yeah I’ve been the person who couldn’t pay too, and had to take items out

There are ads that portray people in humiliating situations, like not being able to afford their groceries while holding up the line at the checkout, so they download an app that gives them “free cash.” This is portrayed as a perfectly normal, reasonable thing to do in this situation.

I got IP banned on reddit for reporting a transphobic comment with an implied death threat. IP banned. The reason given was “abusing the report button,” and they wouldn’t accept my appeal.

I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells here like I did on reddit.

I’m not any kind of expert, but I’ve enjoyed most of Peter Doig’s paintings.

!00% disagree that a single doctor’s recommendation should ever be required to be followed, because sometimes doctors are wrong. That is why there are second opinions and ultimately it is the patient’s choice even if two doctors agree

Yes, but I didn’t want to get into all that because what type of insufferable pedant would demand so much detail in a casual forum? We can assume this. We’re not writing a thesis on medical care ffs.

being forced to have a specific treatment

Good thing no one is talking about being forced.

Redditeur detected. Blocking engaged.

But they’ll continue to whatabout you and JAQ you off regardless, so I maintain that even if there were circumstances calling for transition, it would be none of my damn business anyway.

“If a doctor determines a patient needs a specific treatment and then the parents deny it or the law withholds it, is it a form of abuse?”

Yes.

Oh OK. FWIW I don’t think I’ve lost any tabs on Fennec, but I might have changed something in settings.

I like the way tabs look because I’ve never liked the idea of grouping tabs, but I understand people have different preferences

What’s wrong with it? I haven’t had any problems with it in Fennec.