I’m sorry that you had a bad experience with your psychologist.
If I can point out one thing that might help you is that these thoughts largely come from an evolutionary trait called Negative Bias
Negative Bias is the disproportionate focus on bad events and/or memories compared to good events.
It applies to a large range of memories and our ability to perceive danger. Evolutionary it makes sense because our embarrassing memories makes us afraid or unwilling to behave in a way that the social group doesn’t like.
You can imagine when humans lived in societies in small groups of 30 people, that disrespecting someone could get you kicked out of the group and potentially starve to death in the wild. So there is a very strong evolutionary pressure that made your brain evolve to avoid repeating bad scenarios
Your constant embarrassing, sad, or traumatic memories are your brain reminding you over and over not to be in that situation again.
Unfortunately your brain didn’t evolve to be happy. It evolved to survive.
All I wanted to explain is that these memories are not your fault. Don’t feel like you’re any different because you have bad memories constantly. Accept that your brain will do what it is programmed to do and learn how to work around those tendencies.
And I could recommend trying another psychologist. I’m also available to chat if you’d like. Cheers 🙂
So you’re saying that everyone that dislikes anime “just doesn’t get it” ? That’s a pretty silly take.
I’ve watched about 100 different shows and all kinds of anime genres over many years but I stopped because I can’t do it anymore
Most Anime shows suffer from the same issues. Personally The 2 most difficult things to deal with in are:
- Incredibly frustrating dialogue
I hate how characters speak in an extremely unrealistic and cringy way. It throws me off every time and I can’t connect with the characters. It doesn’t need to be realistic dialogue of course. I just think that anime is very far removed from acceptable dialogue, even for a show
- Shows never go beyond their basic tropes
Edgy anime is edgy and then nothing else. Every slice of life is just that and nothing else. Everything is extremely formulaic and you’re just left with the characters. And the characters are unidimensional. Please add some substance to the plot. Create more human and imperfect characters. Every character represents a trope and has no more nuance than that. The clumsy character is just clumsy. The bully character is just a bully. The main character is either the smartest or the most powerful being in the universe. EVERY TIME.
Seinen anime is a bit better regarding this last point. but it’s still too much. I can’t sit through an episode without cringing several times. Especially over the dialogue