Very interesting talk! Thanks for the share!
It probably has something to do with you growing up… Priorities change (not for everyone ofc) and taste as well in terms of fun. Accept it, don’t judge yourself and just go with the flow. Don’t force yourself to do something you don’t enjoy, time on this Earth is limited!
It can go both ways though e recently picked up reading manga again after a 7 years hiatus and I am enjoying it better than before!
Why kill everyone if you just want to kill yourself? I’m pretty happy with my life!