all these PDFs

Smoke or read, sometimes both in the case of doom scrolling.

I also listen to podcasts and go for bikerides (with a destination in mind like food) currently one known as fall of civilizations has my attention

I oscillate between void and debian. I use a french press. Idk what that says about me

You aren’t a failure you are being failed

If I thought I could take it without breaking down too much

Open source camera apps like open camera and fossify camera exist as well and don’t cost money

I have never not had one

I avoid ads religiously but when I can’t avoid them I mute and look away

What a cutie :D

Anxiety disorder?

Reading academic literature hopefully. This shit is such a drag

Jasmine is top tier imo but I also enjoy chai

Block them, it’s very easy and has made my experience much better

Tbh, I got a lot of work to do. I will probably just check the news that night or wait for someone to tell me.

My motivation. I’m not sure yet

I need mesoamerican mythology in a visual format.

Because the west, which has been heavily influenced by these cultures, controls most of the media you consume.

After the hunger fades you just feel sorta empty/light but eventually that fades too and you stop noticing it. Atleast in my experience

You are correct, I probably would not enjoy it as much as I tell myself I will. Especially with how climate change is going to affect that country and with the risk of buried explosives killing me, but its a nice thought. Laos is a very beautiful country that I wouldn’t mind spending a long time in and the history is rich. The work that would be required of me wouldn’t be easy but it could be freeing. I imagine I romanticize the “simple” life as often as I do because it is essentially out of my reach.

Daydreaming about getting out of here and moving to like laos and farming or some shit