there’s a good Vsauce video about this!

yeah you should, your body builds up tolerance to it crazy fast! give it a month’s rest and then it’s perfect!

jokes aside, as probably Watts said - once you get the message, hang up the phone. Psychedelics can be both good fun and very insightful, but if you focus solely on the fun part that’s just escapism - and the drugs will likely and bluntly point it out to you

common-ish experience for LSD but when i went through ego death, and i have fallen through the darkness and dissolved into the infinite plane of colours below it - i profoundly understood and felt how there’s unity to all of creation, how everything and everyone is an expression of the universe itself. With no barrier between Me and Not Me, it was as if i temporarily melted back into the fabric of reality

so yeah, ego death, pretty epic, fair warning though - it does feel like you’ve died, and however much you want to freak out about that fact, you have to let go. Also it won’t happen if you want it, wanting is an ego thing after all

does that mean i’m famous?! MUM I’M FAMOUS

it’s mostly rooted in my fear of failure, disappointing others, or accidentally characterising myself as someone who’s incompetent or worthless. I have no idea when it spread so far i feel anxious about catching a bus but here i am

calm would be a big word hah, mostly relief, and then i need to take some time to fully relax because it doesn’t happen instantly

i forget what exactly i had but it was in drops. This is from a perspective of someone for whom the meds didn’t work, rather, did the opposite of what they were supposed to

First week i felt nothing, second week i thought my anxiety was getting worse and really started hoping the meds kick in soon (let’s call it foreshadowing). Week three… well i noticed that in the mornings i feel alright, then i take the prescribed amount of drops, then i feel terrible, and in the evenings i feel alright again. My doctor told me effects fully kick in after around a month of treatment, and there can be some bad side effects at first, things getting worse before they get better kind of stuff, so i kept taking them hoping they start working as intended but the thing is- it didn’t stop there. Past week three my anxiety was constant, usually it gets triggered by something i have to do and then fades but when I was taking those SSRI it never stopped. I constantly felt like i was on the edge of a panic attack. I spent my days paralysed, just sitting before my PC trying to distract myself with comfort games & comfort videos, i didn’t even feel like i could play something more challenging or unpredictable than picross or tetris. It drove me to the point where i decided that i’m gonna risk it, do some ill-advised and understudied drug mixing and smoke weed

After 3 days of being nearly constantly high I decided to stop the meds. Though i was close to the elusive month of treatment i just couldn’t keep going like that, some people can stay high for weeks on end but not me, i do actually like being sober. And at that point being sober felt like hell. I gave it a quick Google and when i read that i can quit cold turkey (you can only do it if you haven’t been taking them for longer than a certain amount of time) i did.

It was fucking terrible, 3rd type of anxiety meds in a row that made me so much worse than normal. I’ve just been rawdogging my normal anxiety ever since, well, with some help of weed, alcohol and occasional psychedelics. It’s strange that so far the only “meds” i’ve found to be helpful are uh “self prescribed” so to say

this is obviously not something that happens to everyone, majority of people react fine to SSRIs, i’m apparently just not one of them :(

honestly I don’t know. When you look at the religions of the world all of them say “love and help each other please :) be good to your fellow human beings, be kind, be gentle” and then you look at the execution of those ideas by the majority of religious people- and it’s all twisted and used for hate & you see people saying that without the threat of eternal punishment there is nothing holding them back from hurting others

instead of religion forcing compassion I’d say we should just teach compassion really

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all is good and legal here officer!

yeah my inbox wasn’t loading and stuff on my profile looked as if it was someone else’s (comments weren’t upvoted) but relogging fixed it

yup, at first I thought it was really pretty so I went looking at the details to appriciate it more but I only found things that a human would not do - like the tallest palm in the world to the right (that also doesn’t have a straight body)

I despise 2FA, I’ll stick to my piece of paper with passwords written on it. And if someone breaks into my house and steals it it’ll probably be the least of my worry at the time anyway

mehh, I can find wonder and magic even in things I can fully understand. It’s just a matter of perspective

2FA is shite, I hate having to keep my phone on me at all times. I’ll just stick to my flawed system, it’s not the most optimal but I have all my unique and important passwords written on a piece of paper hidden between two glued pages in my journal, and the throwaway passwords are simple muscle memory

honestly it’s magic even when you understand it. Computers are pieces of rocks drawn on with runes in rare mineral ink, infused with lighting, and then made to do maths by generations of magicians perfecting the translation from the primal language of what can be only described as a pulse of being only made apparent by the times when it’s not being, to words humans can comprehend, then with that maths they somehow they create illusions of entire new worlds, and did I mention they can telepathically communicate with other magical rocks? all through mystical waves all around us created by beacons big and small in key locations. Previously, to talk with a person on the other side of the planet, a single attempt to communicate would require months, if not years, now? seconds. if not less. Computers are magic.

idk man, I know a password manager would make things easier and more secure, but it’s still putting all your eggs in one basket. If the service I gave all my passwords to has a leak or gets hacked - I’m fucked. And I don’t trust them to keep all my passwords locally and not peak in.

I’d rather a couple of my accounts I’ve long since forgotten about be broken into than for my entire digital life to be uprooted.

I have multiple passwords for the levels of security I want, bank is the most difficult, e-mail is close second, then we have mid tier passwords for things I care about personally but wouldn’t really have big consequences if lost, and then the password I personally saw leaked on a russian hacker forum that I use when a webstie insists I need an account to be graced with their service lmao

being simply observed gives me a -50% competence to anything i’m trying to do

absurdism! “one must imagine Sisyphus happy” is what keeps me going

Monkey Island main theme, 1 bit PC speaker version