That sounds like trauma.

Vampires are way cooler than police imo.

Actually, that could be a fun plot point. Vampires get in with warrants, find out people hate cops, investigate why, instigate positive change in the system…

It is? What happened to blahaj?

I have a lot of them. Sleep and I are in an… enemies to lovers kind of relationship.

There’s hate-fucking, is what I’m saying. I hate it so much and it’s all I want.

Some of my advice might be bad advice due to my ADHD but I can’t tell what might work for you so.

Also, I have left off a lot of stuff that I have done that is… not good. If you need harm reduction options, let me know.

1. I wear an eye-mask. The gentle, soft, cool (not cold!) pressure is a reminder to my brain that it’s bed-time.

2. Don’t eat too close to bed.

3. Make sure there’s nothing uncomfortable (like a tag from the sheets) touching me.

4. Play a TV show I find comforting but that doesn’t need my 100% attention, at a low enough volume that I can’t quite hear it unless I’m very, very, very quiet. This helps make me some moving/jittering/jiggling. (I play Futurama. Can’t get a nightmare from Futurama.)

5. I take l-theanine. It’s supposed to make people “alert” and “calm” but my doctor recommended it to me and it’s sedating effect is so strong it significantly drops my blood pressure. (Very useful if I have to take stimulant medication.)

6. Which leads to I take prescription medication. It doesn’t quite do it, and is hit-or-miss, hence the list.

I want to understand, intrinsically, and be able to manipulate to my liking, all the financial systems of the world.

At worst, I’d quickly become a well-paid accountant. At best, I’d become an extremely talented, untraceable, modern Robin Hood.